May 7 question - Some common fears writers share are rejection, failure, success, and lack of talent or ability. What are your greatest fears as a writer? How do you manage them?
Before we get started, here is your content warning.
I cuss. A lot.
If you’re sensitive about that, the back arrow is your best pal.
I have all those aforementioned fears.
I’m not managing them very fucking well, thank you very much!
You may wonder why the hell someone who looks like me would share a picture of myself without a bag over my head. The reason I am sharing my less than glamorous face with the world without more cover-up than a little foundation to prevent me from looking dead and to tone down the appearance of my rosacea flare-up is because music is better when ugly people are making it.
"I didn't know you were a musician, Ornery."
It's an allegory, Reader. Let me explain.
I don’t think people are ugly until they act ugly. People are just kind of people-looking. Even me, although it's hard to see myself that way. I'm so used to thinking of myself as hideous, even though I'm just plain-looking. I look like a European peasant with my round face and stocky body. There's nothing wrong with that.
I'm sick and tired of people thinking it's okay to make other people feel bad about themselves.
This person is fat!
So what?
That person has crooked teeth and a big nose!
Who cares?
I find this person unattractive!
That sounds like a "you" problem."
If you don't find someone attractive, chances are no-one is forcing you to date them, so what the hell difference does it make? Be a damn adult about it.
Anyway...
I'm having to take a lot more time than I would like to work on my bullshit and on trying to be a little more patient with myself. I'm not a patient person by nature.
One thing I've learned the hard way is I don't have to do All The Things. Trying to do All The Things just burns me out. I think the fact that I have trouble being selective may be tied to my ADHD.
My keyboard is doing a thing. It is not a thing I like. So, I think I will end this post here.
That's how I'm doing.
Ornery Owl Has Spoken
